mallory

Wed, 15 Aug 2007 18:59:31 GMT

8 days . wow . who woulda thought ?
its actually very upsetting . i dont really want my life to change.
i miss sabrina. i wish she still lived here. i dont want her to have a new life.
lee told me he loves me . but who the hell isnt meant for a girlfriend? bad excuse .
half of my friends left this week. terrible. miss them already.
im listening to sad songs, ill probably cry a lot this week.
lie . i will cry a lot this week. me and liesse already have it planned.

im doing this 48 hour diet thing. i really want to eat. like bad . this is hard.
im going to the board walk with jess and kathleen tonight . maybe frat ?

well thats my life in a nut shell these days.
i dont want any new best friends :(

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 04:52:55 GMT

so sabrina got married yesterday.
i feel like i lost a part of myself.
i think i cried more than not .
she looked beautiful.
i cry every time i think about her really.
and when i think about my speech, thats a different story.
i love her so much. and im sorry i ever didnt care.
i dont know what im going to do without her. im like beside myself.

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 03:10:54 GMT

ok so coop and kathleen broke up.
my life is miserable bc hers is.
im trying to get lee to realize he loves me too .

idk if i talked about graduation ? well we graduated
billy left already. i cried. i love him.

me and tony are friends. again. for the 5454738546 time. lets see how long that lasts
i hate my life though.
it sucks. i cant do anything right. ever. bye .

lol well i just wanted to say all that .
i miss my friends.

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 19:36:30 GMT

my heart is broken. into a million little pieces.
saying good bye is honestly the hardest/worst thing that can ever happen.

everytime i think about hugging markeith and him saying how hes gonna miss me, esp saying my name in it that gets me . i cry.
it was so genuine and real and coming from him, horrible .
i dont know what im going to do with my life.
this year was the best year of my entire life. and i really dont even comprehend that its over.
im gonna start crying again if i keep writing about this .

SENIORS 07 FOREVER AND EVER <3

Wed, 30 May 2007 22:27:02 GMT

we went swimming at giannas after track today omg so awesome . i just have no words it was so greatt loll

two exams left . hopefully well go to the beach or something after.
our like last time in class rooms ever in high school. craziness.
but i love my life. even if it is retarted as shit lol.

i hung out with lee. hell always be my buddyyyyyyy im never watching 300 again . waste of a movie let me tell you .
me and liesse are like best fucking friends. were the same person. she's coming over now.
track sucks oh well fuck sacred heart
i got punched in my face ? haha im so bad luck.

this summer is going to be amazing .
sabrinas getting married soon .
shit at home is CRAZY. like unbelievable . but i guess we're still alive right ?

nothing is really going on .
ttyl.

Mon, 21 May 2007 00:48:31 GMT

soooo let me see ....
prom was amazing. after was amazing. zona is our hero .
i love my friends.
tomorrow we're going to boston.
i hate apple bees.
me and robert are i have no idea. it's weird.
i need to go running tonight .
graduation is in like a week. holy shit .
yea i don't think i'm gonna go.
did i mention i love my friends ? ahh we cant leave.
i hope summer will be amazing. i think it will be. bc my friends are amazing.
well i think i'm going to go running.

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 00:35:18 GMT

so everything's gay.
well i guess it's okay.
track meet tomorrow. who the fuck wants to go to that? i don't think anyone.
today is easter. i worked. then went to kathleens. im full. and im eating a shit load of candy.
went ot the club last week with tori gina and marissa. it was fun. norman and them were there.
i think im going this week but with dif people.

track started like a week ago. YES CATE BEAT ME BOTH TIMES OKAY. WHAT NOW.
but dudeeeeee im doing good for the first like week. and i already got like my best time ever in my life in high hurdles.
hopefully i get better bc its weird to peak at the first race? lol who the hell does that.
i love jess john though shes like side kick .

um so i miss tony im a freaking idiot.
allens a little bitch. actually I FOrGOT WHO I WAS TALKING TO.
lee and kevin texted me the other day.
but i dont care about anything. i just want some love.

wow im a fat ass.
its spring break.
tomorrow me des amelia and tori are going to caesers. getting all dressed up, it should be fun.
i like having fun. it makes my life.

i have like 3rd degree burns on my hands. i have to wear gloves tomorrow
steves gonna be there. haha.

i love kathleen. i hate driving down the pike in a dif car than her bc i always feel like somethings gonna happen to her and ill see it.
shes a crazy driver.

well i should prob go i kicked patrick off the computer.
i need to shower and sleep ! see yaaaaaaaaa

Sat, 24 Mar 2007 21:08:32 GMT

i just want time to stop.
i wasnt in school yesterday and when i went through the parking lot for mr wildcat there were sweaters all over the place, all mooshy in the rain. wish i was there <33
so i gave all mine to my mom so i was like im never gonna wear these again. and i seriously almost cried. there were tears in my eyes.
i'm not ready for it to be over.

talking about college seriously make me want to hang myself right then in there.

were going to boston tomorrow. i hope jess comes.
we had practice this morning. i cracked something in my crotch that shit hurt i almost fell over.
i ran a 122. jess ran a 118. were fast. haha.
i dont think shes coming saturday? that's cool bc UM I CANT DO IT WITHOUT HER.

i think im going to boston for our trip. hopefully itll be fun bc im missing out on my precious days of school.
this is crazy. who woulda thought we would grow up ?

i talked to lee. it's just not the same anymore. prob never will be.
i dont even know if i care. lol
and i also will not be bothered if i never speak to tony again in my life. i just wont.

oh and i don't care about anything else either. but it's cool.
allen's my little bebeeee <33 st patricks day lolol ill miss him next year.

i want some chocolate.
movie night at jess's. i wish she would wake up so we can go over now !

well i think i'm gonna go buy some chocolate

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 22:03:16 GMT

TODAY WAS THE MOST AMAZING DAY I THINK I HAVE EVER HAD IN MY LIFE.
MOSH PITTTT <333333 SENIORS HELL YEA ALL DAYYYY !
I LOVE YOU ALL.

and i am happy.

also sad bc we only have 2 months left but OMG THE BEST 2 MONTHS IT WILL EVER BE !

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 22:58:22 GMT

soooooooooooooooooooooooooo i love being happy. it's kind of gay that a boy has to make me happy, but i don't care. he's a sweetie.

so tony decided to be my friend again. i didn't really care at first. i mean it was nice that he actually cared, but i was over it . now i'm right back to where i started . i missed him. this is nice =)

lee texted me yesterday. i don't want to say that i don't care bc he does have a big part of me , but in a way i don't. if i lost him somehow to anything, even just growing up, i would miss him dearly. but as much as i don't want to say it, i think i'm over it. i just don't care about anything the way i used to anymore, really. but i'll always say i love him <3.

i talked to sara for like 2 hours today. not about anything really, but i missed her, too.
we're hanging out this week.

i have work 3 days this week wooo .

i'm waiting for gina to ask her mom if i can come over and copy the psych notes. bc i might just fail, i'm sure of it.
we played cards everyday this weekend. i'm getting good.

i'm going to prom with jordan. SAME HOUSE, SAME CAR, SAME TABLE, SAME PICTURES WOOO <33333333 haha

jess showed me where the picture of me, her, and natalie was. so i put it on my myspace. bc it might be one of my favorite pictures. i remember taking it. it was like the most amazing feeling. we were on our way to our group shot for um 1st place <3333 junior year.

i think that's all for now. i'm going to try to study about adolescense.

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 02:52:26 GMT

have i mentioned lately that i LOVE jess john ? like i swear, have no idea what i would do without her .

track is good. cankel's girlfriend is annoying as shit and ill break her ankles if she yeah im gonna stop right there.
im a little excited about the 400 hurdles, but as i just realized. my time is getting better until the end of this season. i might kill myself if my time waits to get better until the end of the year.

my grandpa had a heart attack. my mom was gone for 2 weeks. THANK THE GOOD LORD IN HEAVEN that she is home . i was seriously about to go completely insane. like no lie i swear. i can't even put into words how horrible that was . i dont remember the last time i cried that much. i love my mom.

me and gina are friends now. pretty sweet. can't wait to play cards. i haven't really talked to sara in like a long time. like i feel like i don't even know her anymore? whatever. i talked to lee today. TONY commented my picture. TONY. yes, tony. i guess i do still care bc of the way that made me smile. jeez. then i think about it. and with lee i think that i just feel this way bc of how we used to be. and sadly, i think that with tony, i'm starting to get that way too. i mean we don't even talk i haven't really talked to him since like december. but maybe there's hope somewhere? and when i think that, all i end up at is how we used to be.

so either way, i don't know how i feel bc the 'used to be' is covering the 'now' up. ahh life is so confusing i miss kevin.

hm . we went over futty's last night . i don't want sabrina to get married. i mean i like futty and all but jeez. life's gonna be over soon, everyone is growing up and moving on. it sucks. i've never experienced anything like this before.

i have to write a dbq and finish reading acts of faith. i'm so jealous jess finished before me i wanna know what happens !!

well i'm gonna go now . nightyyyyy

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 18:46:06 GMT

jeez. we had a track meet yesterday at kutztown. it must be karma why i do so bad. im never gonna get faster. WHY. the only time i smiled yesterday was when gianna kept commenting about her time. FUNNIEST THING EVER I SWEAR.

me and norman are like bffff . and all this gay stuff keeps happening and its like ruining us and im upset. and now he doesnt know if his gay girlfriend is gonna be there tuesday so he doesnt know if i can wear his jersey. wtf who cares about her ?

me and j john slept over in pennsylvania yesterday. hot tubb <333 but we couldnt sleep. i brought her and jeffy back together . like cupid <333 MONDAY NIGHT DINNER WOOT WOOT.

i have so much to do this week. i talked to lee yesterday and today for a few minutes. he still loves me . mooosh <3

mid terms are next week. i probably will only study for history and psych. OH MATH DAMNIT FORGOT ABOUT THAT SHIEEET. i hate her mid terms.

we have a race wednesday and states on saturday. i should just prepare myself for failure. why me ?

i have to write some gay ass thing for creative writing i have no idea how to make up my own lyrics. gay. i want to watch a movie and go to sleep. thats what i really want to do. but no. i have to write about songs.

allen is my best friend. that bus ride was long as shit. so was the ride home. i had bad dreams last night. kind of freaky how you wake up from a dream and you feel what was in your dream, you know. i have so much to do this week. buhh. i updated my little red bayybbeeee :] when jess answers me that will be the final question hopefully. bc i kind of hate it right now it's so dumb.

um yeah so i think that's all thats happening . bye.

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 02:18:58 GMT

i am completely in love with my friends. semi was last night. greatest thing ever. so fun. and after <33333 i cant believe it's all almost over. it cant end i dont know what ill do. but i still feel sick. i dont care it was worth it !

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 22:40:16 GMT

so it's sunday night. i'm not going to school tomorrow. i bet half of the senior class won't be in school. take that jt.

my birthday was 3 days ago. it was alright. i kind of dont feel the need to be 18. i got a tattoo. i was supposed to hang out with my friend, but sometimes boyfriends come in the picture and well THEYRE MORE IMPORTANT ? yeaaaaaaaa so what goes around comes around.

i was supposed to hang out with lee today. but some gay stuff. oh well, next week. i dont care though I DONT CARE. i missed him. but im over it for now. i miss tony. my life is so retarted

i eat candy all the time. it's pretty nice. semi is in 2 weeks. see how well that candy makes me look.

track starts wednesday. i hope it's good. and i just stop being sick ? i miss basketball. i would rather do that.

i wanna watch a movie. hm i hate sats. theyre next weekend. i hate college i'm not going byeeeeeeee.

anyway. i'm kind of tired. i'm going to look up little doggies. bc that's what my mom's getting for christmas thanksssssss

peace out.

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 04:16:08 GMT

so i got home a little while ago from the ST JOE SPIRIT game. i was so scared. ah it was amazing. i am in love with richard he made my night. im so glad they won i would have cried. too many teams are losing. but yeah so they won WOOOOO

i have a meet tomorrow. parochials. 2 left. wow. bye st joe. no dont say that. i will cry. hysterically. ah i dont like thinking about it

i am also in love with lee. seriously though. i cant wait until he comes home. he completes my life.

i miss sara. i miss my old life.
buh. i hate college. it is so stressful. i cry all the time

me and steve are friendly ? i guess. again.
it's nice. bc we were nice friends.

i miss jason. i hate that place. omggg pierre I MISS HIM THE MOST !!!!!!!! ahhhhhh

um yeah anyway. the marking period ended. 3 more left :( tear. i hope i did okay.
well i got a 50 on the alienist test. good compared to some people.
me and liesse are like bfffffffff. it's quite nice.

i should probably go to bed.
my muscles are way sore and cold
i need to rest for 3.1 miles in the am
adios <33333333333

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 23:47:21 GMT

so its monday. and school started last week. i hate it.
i cried all day thursday. i wish i could say it couldnt get worse, but with my luck it would.
ive never read so much at one time in my life.
i have no time for anything, barely sleep.
i have to think about college.
i dont even have time to look at my kittens. gosh.
college makes me cry. i wish i could decide something about my life.
not even that, i just cant make any decisions even if i was allowed to.
these are the times i wish i was never born, then i or anyone else wouldnt have to go through this.

i dont want to go to sleep tonight because i know when i wake up i only have so many hours until i have to run. and i dont even have words to explain how i feel about that. it makes me want to cry just thinking about seeing a starting line. god.

im actually going to go cry i think. bye.

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 03:34:05 GMT

goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
what a frickin week. sometimes i think god hates me
i must have cried every day this week.

college is taking the one person i loved.
even though a part of me hates him.
marriage is taking my god damn sister.
i just dont know what to do anymore.
sara is my best friend. im so glad shes home.
i missed her so much. i miss us.

i don't really know what else to say.
i just wanted to get that out.
good bye.

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 17:28:07 GMT

mad long time since i wrote in this.
i decided to tell someone how i friging feel

because i dislike my brothers new little girl thing.
and my mom thinks im jealous? of what i do not know but it made me cry
now, not that it's anything new, my family thinks i'm a bad person.
like always, though.

work is so fucking annoying.
and i hate going

i also hate people who call and leave dumb ass messages.
like, if you have something to say don't hide yourself
that just proves how much of a bitch you are.

i guess i shouldn't be complaining because everything isn't that bad
but still like what the fuck. why does it all happen to me
everyday is something new and i'm actually very tired of it
i probably look like some miserable asshole
i can't even pretend to be happy because i get so mad
i feel like tony. jesus.

lee is leaving in like i don't even know how many days
buh.
i came to the conclusion that i kind of just cover up how i feel
i try and tell myself even though that's not how it really is
i don't want to have to erase all my memories and feelings
especially with him. because it's just impossible
forgetting and moving on is the hardest thing i've ever had to do
i jus wish i didn't have to.
whatever. nothing goes my way. ever. sooo i should just shut up.

i'm a senior. it's crazy, just the thought.
i don't even know what i wanna be or where i wanna go to college
i only know then ame of like 5 colleges anyway
whatever to that also.

my face is disgusting and i must go wash it
goodbye.

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 14:43:29 GMT

track started. life was getting better.
i got my bff back. i <3 him
life got even better.
then gay shit happened, but i got over it.
THEN life came and slaped me in the face.
and im sitting here with the one or two good friends that i have left.
go figure. everything was too good to be true. who was i kidding ?
ive had a fever for 3 days. so im home not doing anything.
i just wanna leave. leave everything that i know go far, far away
somewhere i don't have to deal with life bc it's getting hard.
if i never moved none of this would be happeneing. i would never know any of these people and frankly, i wish i hadn't.
im done bye.

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 22:23:54 GMT

so i got a new car today. just need to name him now.
it's quite cute. little white hundai elantra (spelling?)
i have nothing to do. i want to eat. i have sunburn from practice.
my whole body hurts. i don't know where any of my friends are.
i don't really have anything to say.
i'm not going to prom
effffff that
goshhh im so bored
i think i'm quitting track.
that's all i have to say. bye.

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 04:25:24 GMT

so i've been on this happy streak thing.
for no reason either. thats the gay part.
some things make me mad, but i don't really care
and it's weird. but it's about time.

i don't have school for two more days
and i like that. i just have practice. =[
oh well. sprinters of america. haha jess
ill be back to my old self in a few days, trust.
this whole running in the front doesnt work well
i miss you guys in the back. lol

anyway. lee is my best friend and =]
me and kathy are friends again. ha who woulda thought
im tired. and it ticks me off when people wake me up in the morning
i love you. see ya later

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 18:17:35 GMT

woooo so life sucks.
sike its alright i guess.
actually it's not, im just used to it.
gay shit is happening left and right
but that's nothing new.

me and sara are best friends.
and i hate school.
track is starting soonnnnnnnn!!
but no master b [ ah tear ]

i wish there was no such thing as history class
i hate writing papers.

i have to go study.
bye.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 00:32:21 GMT

i don't even have anything to say.
mid terms are over. sats are over.
so pile on the homeworkkkk
my life is just blah blah blah.
and i just don't know why.
and there's nothing i can do about it
and i feel like such a complainer but its all for real
and it sucks big time.
i miss tony x 153768374573854
or at least who he used to be.
kbye.

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 16:46:03 GMT

i don't even know what to write about.
but me and kathleen got new bras.
and they're great. and so are we
because were best friends x 35454816

track meet at princeton yesterday
i love everyone.
and our little 4x4 team.
even if we did have to leave at 5:50 in the freaking am.
as jess says, we love it. and we know it.

i love how i hate life.
and then when we have track im the happiest person alive
even if i do bad. it still makes me happy

this was probably one of the worst months of my life
but knock on wood, it is slowly getting better :)

i miss tony. just a little.
but oh well. you only live once.
no need to dwell on the past

i have my friends, and you.
and life is good.

now i must go make more notecards
and study until death.

<3 malloryyyyyy

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 03:09:42 GMT

oh so i am just copying what jess said.

Hi; Stress HOW THE FUCK ARE YOU.

i LOVE when all the teachers give us papers all due on the same day.
i LOVE how midterms are very soon and all these reviews are stressful.
i LOVE how caso's review is fucking long as hell.
i LOVE how my spanish review is long as hell also and ill never finish the exam.
i LOVE how we have to write the whole spanish essay IN spanish.
i LOVE how our track coach threatened to kick us off the team if we complain about a race we dont want to run.
i LOVE how he obviously pointed it towards me and jess.

i really hate running the 400 with a passion. he has four girls that run it. he doesnt need me to run it. it would help me. but i don't have the mental capacity to make myself run it without crying. jess hates the 800. she loves the . she has enough endurance to run the 400. I GUESS we are both getting kicked off the team :]. this is the only place i can write about it and he cant fucking read it. because he obviously reads all our away messages. i have my period i am ranting. i am pissed off and stressed. but i love jessica john since we are both complainers and at the same time love/hate track. if track could only be about one hour bus rides going home stopping at mcdonalds and stealing trays - life would be good. i am done with this part.

oh i have no other parts to talk about. that is my life. adios